some freak hacked my hotmail account!!! IRRITATING.. but im kinda happy too. haha. i know.. im weird. irritated because i dont like people hacking into others account.. they've just got no life! to those hackers out there.. GET A LIFE! haha. happy because i can finally change my stupid and cheesy email add. sounds so ewwww.. i've been wanting to get rid of it. thanks hacker. haha.

remember the times we used to talk on the phone for long long hours?
remember the times we used to talk like we were friends forever?
remember the times we used to hang out so often?
remember the times we used to compete with each other?

do you even remember how we came about knowing each other?
do you even remember why you called me everyday?
do you even remember what embarressments we went through together?
do you even remember how i comforted you?

all these seems to fade away..

why?

because i left you?
or because you left me?

because you asked me that question?
or because i didn't give you an answer?
after that night, we stopped doing the things we used to do.
you asked me why i was avoiding you.
well.. i wasn't.
but you were..

you wrote me a testi.
but i wished you didn't.
because after that testi..
it seemed like we were worlds apart.

i know this has happened a long long time ago..
but then..
i really miss the times that i've spent with you.

look at the mess you got yourself into,
how am i supposed to forgive you?
everyone is talking about you.
but i choose not to listen.
i shut my ears.
thinking it's all just a lie.
but somehow,
i'm caught in the middle.
whom to believe?
i really don't know.
you?
..or them?

i lie on my bed every night,
thinking..
about you..
and about her.
soon, my pillow gets wet..
my tears start to flow.
pictures of us,
starts to fade away... ...

i can't help
but doubt you.
i'm sorry,
but i've lost that trust in you..
how am i to pretend like nothing's happened?
how am i to pretend like nothing's wrong?
my life feels like it's falling apart..
but thank God..
i found my pillar of strength.
and that's Him.
my God, my Abba Father.

a lil update about my trip to KL..
i know, i know.. this should be up a long time ago. haha.

my first meal at KL. yummm..

*BURP*

opps.. =x

it was at an indian stall opposite my hotel(FEDERAL HOTEL).

when you step into the hotel.. this is how it looks like:

oh oh oh.. look at this pic. my dad took it before we went back from the indian stall to my hotel..

*SNAP*

wow. just nice. see the motorbike behind me.haha.

i think the motorist thinks im crazy to be standing in the middle of the road and.. what more..! taking a picture!!!

my hotel room.

im a rickshaw driver!! muhahahaha!

oh yes! look at this "building"..

it only has one side of it's wall.. the FRONT!

here's a car crash which killed the driver's girlfriend.

look's kinda bad huh??

well.. didnt really buy lotsa stuff. we only went to 2-3 shopping malls. yup. that's about it i guess.. till next time.

woot!! im going to KL tmr till saturday. first time there.. pathetic huh? haha. actually it's not really my first time. the first time i went there, was when i was in my mummy's warm little tummy.. haha! ok fine. it's my first time.. happy?? haha. im so excited.. why? cos i heard that KL is a place to SHOP!!!!! yay! shopping, shopping, shopping.. shopping and more SHOPPING! i havent shopped for a LONG TIME.. and i mean LONG.... haha. CAN'T WAIT!

but then, i wanna go for extra services!! 2 guest speakers this week! and i can only go for 1 service! the first 3 services, i'll be in KL. while the 4th service is on, i'll have to report for usher duty. then i'll attend the 5th one and i doubt i can go for the 6th cos i gotta go fellowship.. so yeah. ONLY ONE!